~3.5~This book packs a massive emotional punch. Rob always called his older brother Tommy "Atlas," because Tommy carries the weight of the world on his shoulders. Tommy protected Robbie from their abusive father and gave up his own happiness to make sure Robbie had everything he needed. When Robbie, seemingly out of the blue, commits suicide, Tommy is gutted and devastated, unable to move on. Then a stranger shows up on Tommy's doorstep looking for answers. Zack, bereft and homeless, was supposed to jump that night on the roof, but Rob saved him, and Zack wants to know how the bright, vibrant young man who danced with him on a rooftop could have taken his own life. Zack and Tommy attempt to figure out why Rob chose death over life, but suicide is rarely a mystery. Suicide isn't brave, nor is it cowardly. It's a way to make the pain and despair go away. Depression is a noose, and sometimes it squeezes so tightly, dying feels like the only way out. Because they're thrown together under such stressful conditions, Zack and Tommy begin an intense relationship. They sleep together almost immediately. They both need it. It's a way to forget. But Zack is hiding a secret. Tommy doesn't know exactly how Zack knew Rob, and Zack is scared that if he tells him, Tommy will blame him for Rob's death. This book is super steamy, the sex wild and uninhibited. At one point, the men go a it so hard, they break the shower head.The emotions are amplified because both MCs are grieving a major loss. But Zack and Tommy also enjoy just being together, watching dumb slasher movies and puttering around in the kitchen. The book is told in the present-tense, first-person POV of all three men: Tommy, Zack, and Rob (who narrates five out of the 42 short chapters). The voices, however, weren't fully distinct, and if I didn't pay attention to the section headers, I would lose track of who was narrating. There were also quite a few editing issues, including missing words, redundancies (the word "relief" was used far too many times), erroneous subject/verb agreement (e.g., I wonder if either of us are able to stop), and cringe-worthy grammar errors (e.g., Have you read some of these handles? There all pretty bad). Pretty bad, indeed. Despite this (and you guys know that I'm a grammar hound), I really connected with Tommy and Zack, and my heart broke for Rob. I totally ugly cried more than once and couldn't stop reading this book. There is something staccato about the text (this is one of the few times the present-tense narration did not bother me), to the point that it's mesmerizing. Plus, the epilogue is perfect. Tommy and Zack so deserve their HEA! This is an angsty read but not without hope. In the end, happiness wins.